How appropriate that the Lord chose Valentine's Week to show me how much work is still needed within me to have a kind of marriage that glorifies Him. This past weekend Dave and I were just annoying each other. Nothing outright mean or serious, just rubbing each other the wrong way. We were misinterpreting the other person's tone of voice. I don't know what was going on in Dave's mind, but for me I was simmering and my self talk was agitated to say the least. I took one instance and in return responded negatively in every encounter with him.
Then Sunday morning during quiet time, I read Matthew 12:34-37 34 "You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. 35 A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36 But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. 37 For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”
God showed me that I was nowhere close to what I "thought" I was and what I am now is not going to cut it. My words and attitude towards Dave showed me there's still a lot of evil in me and only complete parasitic dependence on Him will clear it out. Although it wasn't outright mean, it wasn't good and it wasn't with a pure heart. And if it wasn't good, it was evil. And if I wasn't gathering, I was scattering. I was humbled and re-grounded. I repented and called Dave to apologize for ruining his morning. God wasted NO TIME in showing His approval. Just this week He lead us to a financial breakthrough that neither one of us had thought of before. And He revealed it to my husband, not me. It is reinforcing His promise in Proverbs 3:34 to show favor to the humble and oppose the proud.
So in addition to exchanging love, cards, and gifts today make sure your also include humility to your list of gifts. Ask God to show you the areas of pride and evil in your heart and actions towards your husband. Repent and confess. Allow God to strip you. Simultaneously, He will rebuild you in His image. You will love how you feel. You will love what you see. And trust me, so will your husband! Happy Valentine's Day!!! - Ai
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